Thursday, July 30, 2009

FOR REAL?!!

So I went to my 6wk post partum appointment yesterday. And yeah I did go two weeks late. Braden is 8wks old today! So insane! Anyway, at my appointment, I received devastating news. Due to the genetics of my body, and some complications related to those genes, I have been strongly cautioned to stop eating the one thing that I eat more than any other food in the world. The one thing that sustains me. The one food that I love more than any other. I was told that if I didnt cut it out of my diet, the results could end up badly, and it would just be much easier on my body if I cut this particular thing out. I mean there was a list of like 20 different things that I should stop consuming or not consume, most of which were medications, but really the foods that I should cut out of my diet, what normal human lives without these things?!
So the very first thing my dr. told me that I should go without was....
CHOCOLATE!!
Really?! REALLY?!! Its a true story. Naturally, I feel like my love for all things delicious is ruined. I can hardly believe it. I am pretty sure that I eat chocolate honestly, at least once a day. I might as well just cut sugar all together because if a girl can't have chocolate then what can she have? Basically what it comes down to is caffeine I guess. Apparently chocolate just has too much caffeine for me. Normally I would probably just shrug it off, but one of my aunts was having the same problems I am, and once she cut the caffeine, things started looking up. Naturally I dont want things to get worse, but my entire existence got worse upon hearing that news. At first I was feeling powerful. I mean come on, I had a baby. I can cut chocolate from my diet. Not even 6 ours after my appointment, my visiting teachers came over and they were bearing gifts. What did they bring? Naturally the brought chocolate chip cookies. Good grief. Of course I at some. Thank goodness for Devin who has a tremendous sweet tooth and I knew I could count on him to eat most of them. So far, I am 0 for 3. And of course we have chocolate just lying around our kitchen.
1/2 a pack of Double Stuff Oreos
1 box Triple Chocolate Brownies
1 box gourmet Chocolate cupcake mix
3 bags of Chocolate Chips
So goodbye to my love affair with chocolate. Our days are numbered. I dont really think I can just quite cold turkey. I think I am going to have to take my time and do it slowly. Thinking of all that I have to give up breaks my heart. Hopefully there will come a day, when like my Aunt, I dont even have a desire to eat it anymore. But until then I will suffer. And not in silence. This will be a challenge, and a struggle, but I am a woman(which is probably the biggest problem) and I am strong. I can do this! Right?!

14 comments:

Metcalf's said...

oh no! I am so sorry for bringing you the cookies...I had NO idea. From now on, it's chocolate free goodies for you! I admire your healthy decision.

kylie said...

O MY FREAKING GOSH!

i cannot believe that! dude. i dunno man. i dunno if i could do it. but they say you can do anything if you put your mind to it.

especially if it's dangerous to your health. yesterday i actually contemplated trying to not eat chocolate for a week.

i made it...two hours, b/c my boss brought me a box of see's chocolate haha.

get a team of support--it'd help if your husband did it with you, but that'd be a HUGE sacrifice for him. ;)

good luck girlie. you can do this!!!!

Dane & McCall said...

I believe

Court and Tim said...

I wanted to bring you whole wheat bread and crackers, but Lindsey said NO...oh if she had only listened to me

The Wadman's said...

Oh, Ashley I'm sorry! I guess now we just need to find lots of other yummy desserts for you so you're not tempted by chocolate. If I were a really good friend I'd make something delicious for you. But since I don't even cook dinner for my poor, starving husband I'll send you some recipes :)

Alicia said...

nooo....well look on the bright side...well...i'll let you know when i find a bright side...good luck!

Brandy,Nate and Corban said...

Oh no ashley! Im sorry to hear about that. I hope everything is alright with you. Your little one is so cute. You will love being a mommy. Im glad you will be healthy though.

Tyler said...

i promise cutting out chocolate isn't all that bad. it's hard to get used to at first and you'll crave it (i did for about a month after cutting it out). but after that, it's easier to just not give into the emotional temptation it becomes. your body will no longer "need" it. you'll just want it cause it looks good. i have done without it for 3 years and i'm not only surviving, but i feel 100 times better when i don't consume chocolate, candy and other sweets. you can do it!

Tyler said...

oops. i was signed in as my husband, but this is tiffany (michelle's little sister).

Jeff and Eliza said...

So I guess I shouldn't brag about my $20 gift certificate to See's that I won at Bunco huh? That's a bummer!

DJ and Candra Probert said...

Meehhhh....

Chocolate is NOT even that great. Over-rated. It's just for chumps. You'll hardly even miss it.

(this is a trick. is it working?)

Mat, Chenae & Jackson said...

ew. chocolate is gross. so so gross. I mean, it's disgusting. repulsive. brown. sticky. nasty. poopy. It makes me sick even talking about it. I'll do it with you (as soon as I finish the bag of Reeses pb cups that my friend gave me for my bday)

Joe and Mar said...

Im feeling your pain! I have been off chocolate ever since Carter was born and it is rough BUT I have found a candy that makes me think Im eating chocolate but Im not- Reeses Pieces. They are 100% not chocolate and I have eaten bags and bags of them. Give it a try. By the way, I love reading your posts, you are quite hilarious. You should write a book someday. Good luck!

David&Deena said...

I don't even know what to say to comfort you! Except that I think there will be chocolate in heaven when your body is perfected and can savor it.