FOR REAL?!!

So I went to my 6wk post partum appointment yesterday. And yeah I did go two weeks late. Braden is 8wks old today! So insane! Anyway, at my appointment, I received devastating news. Due to the genetics of my body, and some complications related to those genes, I have been strongly cautioned to stop eating the one thing that I eat more than any other food in the world. The one thing that sustains me. The one food that I love more than any other. I was told that if I didnt cut it out of my diet, the results could end up badly, and it would just be much easier on my body if I cut this particular thing out. I mean there was a list of like 20 different things that I should stop consuming or not consume, most of which were medications, but really the foods that I should cut out of my diet, what normal human lives without these things?!

So the very first thing my dr. told me that I should go without was....

CHOCOLATE!!

Really?! REALLY?!! Its a true story. Naturally, I feel like my love for all things delicious is ruined. I can hardly believe it. I am pretty sure that I eat chocolate honestly, at least once a day. I might as well just cut sugar all together because if a girl can't have chocolate then what can she have? Basically what it comes down to is caffeine I guess. Apparently chocolate just has too much caffeine for me. Normally I would probably just shrug it off, but one of my aunts was having the same problems I am, and once she cut the caffeine, things started looking up. Naturally I dont want things to get worse, but my entire existence got worse upon hearing that news. At first I was feeling powerful. I mean come on, I had a baby. I can cut chocolate from my diet. Not even 6 ours after my appointment, my visiting teachers came over and they were bearing gifts. What did they bring? Naturally the brought chocolate chip cookies. Good grief. Of course I at some. Thank goodness for Devin who has a tremendous sweet tooth and I knew I could count on him to eat most of them. So far, I am 0 for 3. And of course we have chocolate just lying around our kitchen.

1/2 a pack of Double Stuff Oreos

1 box Triple Chocolate Brownies

1 box gourmet Chocolate cupcake mix

3 bags of Chocolate Chips
So goodbye to my love affair with chocolate. Our days are numbered. I dont really think I can just quite cold turkey. I think I am going to have to take my time and do it slowly. Thinking of all that I have to give up breaks my heart. Hopefully there will come a day, when like my Aunt, I dont even have a desire to eat it anymore. But until then I will suffer. And not in silence. This will be a challenge, and a struggle, but I am a woman(which is probably the biggest problem) and I am strong. I can do this! Right?!